it's healthy, it's happy, it's sexy, it's sweet.
Kissing is unqiue as each falling snow flake.
It's time to pull out all the stops and pucker those beautiful lips.
The world would be a better place if we just loved each other as we're meant to do!
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some days no matter what you say or do, its just not good enough!
Some people don't have it in them to see all you do, to hear all you say.
It can be hard, gut wrenching at times but then after the fog clears and the pillows been thumped quite a few times, you realize you survived and you are the stronger for it.
Don't let others stubbornness or hardheadedness ruin your peace. SMILE, you are beautiful and you've got this!
Sometimes it's fair and sometimes not!
It truly should not be WHY or NOT FAIR but how can I carry on as best I can.
Life is for living, enjoying and savoring the many memories.
Hold your loved ones near and dear, in the blink of an eye it can be all over with nothing but words and memories...
Some days life really throws you a spanner into the works, from the moment you fall out of bed until the end of the day when your curled up into a tight ball wondering how you possibly made it through the day.
But...you did, you will...you are!
Life is...LIFE!
We were never promised easy, or pretty, or beautiful!
But we all have those precious moments to enjoy and carry us when the days throw bricks at us and we have to climb to keep on going.
Some days I sit and watch people if I have some free time, do ye ever do that?
Today I was watching two groups of young people, firstly one group came in and sat in the cafe laughing and talking about two people, then another group of young people came in and said two people were amongst them, the first group acted as if they were best friends and nothing had transpired before, why?
Why do people stab each other in the back? Why talk behind others back, to what benefit is it?
How do you show other forgiveness if you can't forgive yourself?
The world needs to see forgiveness in action, to forgive a wrong doing is to free your hurting soul and let it heal in time.
You aren't been a coward by forgiving, you are being the strong moral character and showing the way.
While finishing my book A Grave Hope I'm sitting here contemplating what do we all believe in?
Fairies? While helping wonderful Cody Kennedy with his book FAIRY I've wondered that!
Ghosts? I have a kind Spirit in my story as well as a Vampire king, what do you still believe in or do you?
I write YA under my pen name Sinead White Pillatzke
Keep an eye out for both!!!!
I also have a wee tiny itty bit of fabulous input in an amazing Author Cody Kennedy's FAIRY. His character Quinn is an Irish Fae, if ye haven't already please DO go look!!!!
It's a free read on his site!!!
Dracula is an 1897 Gothic horror novel by Irish author Bram Stoker. It is one of my absolute ALL time favorite stories to date! What is your favorite HALLOWEEN go to book? or film?
ever have a day where you have so much to say but don't really know how to say it?
or are in a conversation with someone and you really want to say SHUT UP and just listen for a change?
why are conversations so hard to have?
really they are only words, how hard can it be?
of course life gets in the way, we ourselves get in our own way and tend to suffer the classic case of foot in mouth disease, disastrous!
If an author sat ye down right now and asked ye, if ye were given the choice what or who would yer hero be and why?
Tell me :-) I'm interested in hearing!
A lot!
It's who ye were born to be, it's who ye grow up to be, it's yer skin, yer nature, yer first love.
It's why ye may have been bullied as a child, it's yer ancestors, yer past, yer countries very history.
Yer name is very important, wear it proud!
Practice small steps. Establish more
attainable goals. While long-term goals are important and valid, balance
them with incremental goals along the way. When such smaller goals are
reached, celebrate...
Ye know how it goes, ye work yourself in a tizzy and try to get stuff done, then ye actually finally ask someone to help and guess what, it doesn't get done!
We really need to look to each other and communicate more to get things done!
That's right folks a compilation of three short stories is in the works get ready for some smoking hot short reads :-)
The set of three shorts is called The Elevator :D
sometimes I find myself watching the news, media and even friends and wonder is there truly room for honesty, whether in the work place or amongst friends?
it would appear in this fast and tumultuous world the right way is not always the honest way, just the quick way, the easy way, the step over the person who's lying down way...
sometimes self belief is EVERYTHING!
It's also one of the hardest things to have, faith in oneself.
However if we can find it deep inside...we can do anything, achieve anything and for the rest of our lives feel real love, pure love, SELF love and finally acceptance.
Tomorrow is Monday, or already is, depending where ye are!
How about today and the rest of the week ye do ONE thing, yes ONE thing for a stranger, to show ye care!
What will ye do?
Have you ever sat and watched people, just went to a mall and sat there, people watched as it were?
Have you ever watched how people interact with each other, truly interacted, it's often painful to watch.
Why do we hurt the one's we "love" the most and treat strangers with the utmost respect?
Is it because we "know" we can get away with it, or is it truly a case of no one knows what goes on behind closed doors because they too are having issues and turn a blind eye...
I sometimes sit and wonder this question...are people truly afraid to admit they are happy?
Is it not possible to be happy?
Why?
Happiness is a state of mind is it not?
Can we make ourselves happy or do we need those around us to help us along the way?
Today a question was asked on a blog I was reading, what does a woman want in a man...all alpha?
It was a question that truly had no YES/NO answer...how could there be a correct answer.
Are we all as humans not the same? Do we not want to find LOVE with a person, whether male or female, young or old, rich or poor, big or small...is this truly not what every single soul on this planet is striving for, even in the animal kingdom!
To feel cherished, adored, protected and made feel whole, our ying for our yang?
It doesn't matter the sex or the style or the equipment it's what's INSIDE that counts, right?
Is it tangible, real? Can we touch it, taste it, feel it?
Can we buy it at the local store? Is it like happiness that's available for the great bargin of $2.99?
What is love, really?
Is it a person? Is it a thing?
Do we all enjoy it's heartfelt sentiments?
What is love?
Where do I order my side of it? Does it come in X-Large?
Can my cat find it too?
Unlike us, the ancients did not lump all the various emotions that we
label "love" under the one word. They had several variations,
including: Philia which they saw as a deep but usually
non-sexual intimacy between close friends and family members or as a
deep bond forged by soldiers as they fought alongside each other in
battle. Ludus describes a more playful affection found in fooling around or flirting. Pragma
is the mature love that develops over a long period of time between
long-term couples and involves actively practising goodwill, commitment,
compromise and understanding. Agape is a more generalised love, it's not about exclusivity but about love for all of humanity. Philautia
is self love, which isn't as selfish as it sounds. As Aristotle
discovered and as any psychotherapist will tell you, in order to care
for others you need to be able to care about yourself. Last, and
probably least even though it causes the most trouble, eros is about sexual passion and desire. Unless it morphs into philia and/or pragma, eros will burn itself out.
Love
is all of the above. But is it possibly unrealistic to expect to
experience all six types with only one person. This is why family and
community are important...
“Don’t try
that again little one.”A large finger
stroked her cheek almost tenderly.Shaking her head in confusion she lay there feeling perplexed.“I’m not the monster most people believe me
to be.”Again utterly confused she lay
there wondering what he meant and who was he?“I am THE fallen angel you
have heard fables about.”Still dazed
Lotus didn’t pass comment, a fallen angel, she had never really heard of many;
in fact she only recalled hearing of one in her religious studies with Ms.
Primrose.“That is me precious Lotus.”Gasping she sat up bolt right, “You are
Lucifer?”She could feel his smile as he
knelt down before her, his shadow kneeling in front of her, “I am him.”Lotus tried to squirm away and pushed herself
back against the wall lifting her legs up and wrapping her arms around them,
the room suddenly felt very small and intimate.“Lotus do not fear me, I have nothing but respect for you child.”Lotus couldn’t take much more of this
throwing all fear aside she jumped up not even thinking of where her feet would
land, swaying dangerously again she felt strong arms around her “Child you are
far more precious and rare than you know yourself to be.”I will let no one harm you, but Casimiro will
pay for his sins.”
That kiss... His dominant side pushes
forward, pushing her against the wall, he holds her petite hands above
her head, sliding his teeth down her neck, moans escape, heart beats quicken, his leg pushes between hers, whimpers escape her swollen aroused lips, a small pink tongue licks the beaded sweat lying above his top lip, growling he pushes his full heavy weighted body against hers claiming her mouth in a kiss of pure ownership...
Erotica...why do I write it?
Passion. Fire. Intensity. Heat. Desire. Anger. Lust. Overwrought
Emotions. Physical. Playfulness. Seduction. Love. That is me, who I am
and what I write...
people are led to believe if you have love you have everything.
The concept while admirable is truly not the complete truth!
While having love is wonderful you also have to have a complete faith in the person you love.
A complete trust in the person you love.
If you don't have those qualities in that person LOVE is NOT enough!
sometimes I sit here and wonder to myself will something happen that I've been dreaming and hoping for...is it possible to make something happen by thinking positively and having faith it will?
I believe we have to have faith and aspire to make our dreams come true, life is for living and experiencing each and every day, death is too long, life is too short!
While writing my previous book A Grave Desire I was thrown into many thoughts
can the human race survive each other? is it even possible?
are we all that different even from different countries with differing traditions or are we deep down very alike?
I believe so, but I believe the media would have us believe differently.
It's time to stop others thinking for us, it's time to stand up for ourselves and each other, dare to hold out a hand?
I wrote A Grave Desire based in WWII
It's a real heart wrenching love story where my two hero's are in a concentration camp.
It is not what it seems!
My heroine thinks her lover is a Nazi, he is not...who is he though? Russian, American or British perhaps?
My heroine my hero knows is not German but does he really know who she is? Can he save her from extinction and should he, risking all?
I loved writing this book, I did quite a bit of research and found myself in awe of a time where technology did not lead the way, human perseverance did, I think humanity is a dying breed near extinction :-(
it's in the hands! Truly it is, sometimes a pair of strong hands can work magic on the tattered soul.
Hands rubbing aching shoulders and a weary heart, hands holding you tight in a hug.
Hands are magic, next time you feel the need ask a loved one or friend!
Truly it does...sometimes we just have to have faith in whatever it is we are worried about.
Sometimes all we can do is sit it out and hope for the best.
Sometimes all we have is FAITH!
Can ye learn to trust in yourself and let it all go and realize if ye do yer life will be far more than ye expected it to be?
Follow your own path, not one that others want you to follow. Find the
humor in life and laugh like there is no tomorrow. Relax and move with
the flow of life by being unafraid of change. Be adventurous by trying
new things and taking more risks. Have more intellectual curiosity and
embrace creativity. Try to find happiness with as many different people
as you can...♥
People
ask why keep promoting RNC well consider this if you will, for every
time all of us promote we bring potential new readers to the convention,
that's probably thousands of possible new readers for us all. If you
didn't bring one book to sell but wore a t-shirt with your cover that
again is potentially thousands of people who may consider buying your
book! Why promote? Easy, it helps not only Jimmy Thomas but us as well,
so lets do our utmost in the last hurdle of this race, lets promote
RNC!! Please do share away!!!
You can love someone so much it hurts!
It hurts in so many little ways, fear of losing them, fear or rejection, fear of betrayal.
Loving someone with all your heart is a huge risk, but is it a risk worth taking?
I believe so, no matter how frightened it might be to trust someone else with your heart, no matter how many times you may have already been betrayed, loving someone, truly trusting someone with your heart is a very beautiful thing.
Fear controls us and can consume us, is fear real or is it what we build up in our heads.
Is fear our idle minds freaking us out when nothing better is going on?
Is fear controllable or is fear a disease of sorts, devouring our peace of mind and making us doubt our very selves and what we can achieve?
I
wish we would all wake up bright purple tomorrow so no one can point
fingers and place judgements on race or religion anymore. It saddens me
the reactions of human beings. I have seen a lot of ignorance through
out the news and these social medias the last couple of days that made
me actually shut down to the world because it's putting a dampener on my
soul. I don't ever want to lose the hope I have
left because some people can't pull it together. I just want to take
the time to state the obvious. Anger and violence do not solve anything.
Never has done, history taught us that. Never will do, Mama's taught us
that! This is a time we should all come together as one instead of
looking to place the blame. We're surrounded by idiots, bigots,
murderers, rapists, but we're also surrounded by good hearts, kind
hearts, thoughtful hearts, that's the way life works. It does not matter
what color or religion you are. Stop placing the blame on an excuse
that you created in your mind to explain away how you feel. It is who
you are on the inside that matters. End of story. We need to overcome
tragic times and take into realization that our world needs serious
changes, that us people need serious change and together we can do so.
We need to bring up our children positively and in love. Turn your
negatives into positives. Shed light. Spread love. Share kindness. And
care for one another as you care for your own. It starts with you. All
you have to do is inspire others to do the same to cause a chain
reaction...
Yes it's one of those days/nights, where everything I have tried to achieve has fallen by the way side.
Why? Well family related, waiting on hearing news, more than likely bad news at that :-(
It's just one of those days, sighs heavily.
Sometimes life has a habit of trying to teach us to forget ALL the planning and just realize how precious life truly is. Go on, go hug each other.
I'm sitting here after talking to a "friend" wondering how I didn't see them for what they truly are before!
Did I miss the signals? Has this ever happened to you?
Ye think ye have a great friend and then they do something totally out of character and you are left wondering what to do!
Regardless of the freedom act I don't believe everyone should open their mouths just to be heard, can they not think it out in their heads before hand and realize how stupid it sounds in the first place?
Why offend someone just 'cause ye can? Does it appear cool to be cruel?
Sometimes I wonder if the vast majority of people in this world have actually grown up!
THINK before ye TALK a lot of people will thank ye for it in the end!!!
Sorry I've been away and so busy of late but I'm back postings will resume, hope yer all delighted :-D
Here is something very worthwhile to share with ye all!
what happens?
yer left behind eating dirt!
yes truly, you believe in something, stand up for what you believe in and somehow in doing so instead of being applauded you are kicked in the stomach and while down someone else decides to throw their two cents worth in and kick you also!!!!
why is it we set ourselves up for a bumpy ride by trusting the very person that will hurt us the most?
what special powers does this person have that we somehow let them get away with it?
more often than not they do not wear a special cape or have amazing powers to stun us.
instead they treat us badly, neglect us or antagonize us and yet we stand back and let them do it?
well why not?
but yes, why are we totally attracted to of all things Vampires?
is it their looks, not really they are undead after all...
is it there darkness?
perhaps! is it because we recognize some of ourselves in their darkened troubled souls?
what we go through in life they have lived through centuries, do we empathise with them?
I do believe so...tragic, lonely, abused, misunderstood, strong, determined and passionate...
would that not describe most of us at one or two paticular times in our life?
NO one and I do mean NO one should ever have to go through the horror of bullying, in any form or shape
No matter what yer beliefs are in life, Ye should always have respect from yer peers and yer elders and most importantly yer family!
Why is bullying still out there? Why has it not been stamped out with hangings and burnings of "witches"
How can society allow precious loved one's to fall through the cracks just because they might see things differently, say things differently, look different from the "fashionable" "norm"
I say it's up to each and everyone of us to eradicate this deadly disease that effects us all, any age, any social status, any religious believer, any personality at all...
Everyday we are bombarded with images of the "perfect" LOVE, the love we should all aspire to, to obtain at any price, even to sell our very soul in order to achieve it.
LOVE is not cheap, it's PRICELESS!
You can not BUY LOVE, it's freely given by someone who has sat with you, watched your tears fall as you disclosed your inner most fears while they held you tight and made you feel loved.
LOVE is beautiful, raw, open, honest, healthy, passionate and two way, not one way!
LOVE is tender, gentle, wild and free.
LOVE is everything and anything you both feel at any given moment together.
LOVE is laughing until you hurt, crying until the tears dry up and you fall asleep in the others arms, happy and content knowing you are loved.
LOVE can get angry, fierce even jealous at times, not because you don't trust each other but because you are human, you have fears and illogical moments of doubt, but if it's LOVE you will work through your fights and come out smiling...
isn't that all we need on a daily basis, as well as someone to point out how worthy we are to be hugged in the first place? Is it that hard to show our love of each other to each other?
In this disposable world we live in, our immediate needs are always taken care of, with the click of a button, however the thing that matters the most, our heart, is not a simple one click does all process...
We need to socialize not on FB, not on TWITTER, not through TEXTS, no we need human interaction, daily, a touch to our cheek a hand to hold...we are all forgetting how to communicate in the most basic ways...soon we will look to our animal relatives to learn how to act and socialize...what does this teach our children?
sometimes life throws ye into a situation ye no more wanted to be in than for example sitting in a dentists chair...yet ye have no choice, if ye do what ye really wanted to do it will rock the boat for more than one person...
I'm in a quandary...due to someone else's actions I'm free falling...if I try to put a stop to it the right way...too many others will get hurt, innocents but if I don't speak up...then I get hurt...life...
is there truly a difference in sex and making love?
I believe so, I believe ye can have animalistic sex with someone ye don't know but have a heated connection to but to make love ye have to be involved mentally, emotionally and physically.
my characters when I write have BOTH, but are involved deeply with each other, it helps bring my characters to life, to discover each other inside and out, to see what makes each other tick and the angst in my stories are what the characters have been through before they met each other, their luggage so to speak...
Do we even stop every now and then and wonder if we are sharing our love and joy with others or just trying to accumulate as quickly as possible what we most desire physically...
Do we not realize that all these "things" we must have and HAVE to have are truly making us sick.
Our hearts and our MINDS need LOVE, need freedom to be able to express our inner most desires but of late with all the technologies out there, we just click a button and hey presto our immediate needs are taken care of and we FORGET how to work for something, LONG for something, CRAVE for something.
To obtain our DREAMS we must have goals, we must have DESIRES...
ach I know I've been off of here a wee while forgive me please...
I was thinking of ye all :-)
I found myself this past hectic few days asking a lot of big questions.
Do ye ever do that?
Questions like, do people really LOVE anymore?
Do people only want what's in it for them, the immediate satisfaction as opposed to what can I bring to everyone to bring happiness.
Does real happiness even exist in our oh so commercial world?
Yes, lots of questions and lots of how do we turn this all around, how do we help each other back on track...
Create the opportunity for your mind and heart
to be open to new experiences without prejudice or anxiety. Be joy and
happiness in every moment. Be alive and free from your past, your past is gone, it is over, live in the now, create your happiness, express your hearts desires
I sit and wonder if there ever is a magical right time to have THAT talk with someone
to sit them down, pin them down if necessary and have it all out?
if someone is acting suspicious and someone treats ye badly, why bother?
the right time has come and gone...surely self preservation and dignity make ye move on?
do you ever sit and wonder about someone in yer life, they say one thing but do another?
do you ever truly wonder if ye really know that person at all?
they say all the right things in front of others but alone ye find out a whole other side to them?
why do people do this? what's the reasoning behind it, does it mean they trust ye with their real self or does it mean they could care less about ye and yer feelings?
the world is filled with angst and pain, so much more than we could ever bare to describe
Yet it is through this very pain that we learn to thrive, to believe in ourselves and have strength in ourselves once again...
we truly are able to deal with anything if we have too. it doesn't mean it's fair, it just is what it is...
time helps us to learn to deal with whatever it is we have to go through...it won't be easy, it will feel like we are slowly bleeding out, but like all wounds it eventually stops and we move on, with one more scar to our map of scars throughout of lives...
be brave, be fearless, be real and be loving...each of us needs each other....
do you ever sit and wonder why your parents called you the name you are?
is it after some saintly person they prayed to?
is it after a favorite author/dancer/singer/actor?
is it after a first love that no one knew about?
or is it after the meaning behind the name?
is it even important? i think so, names are beautiful, they set you up to build on your character.
If the meaning is beautiful, heroic, gentle it helps put your child out there...creates the mold to which your child builds their life on.
so many Sam's, so many Harry's, so many Kate's...I love originality and uniqueness but I love real names not created such as Vanilla...I like ice cream but not to call a child by that name...
The world is indeed full of peril and in it there are many dark places. But still there is much that is fair. And though in all lands, love is now mingled with grief, it still grows, perhaps, the greater...
Sometimes life just drags ye along by the collar, forcing ye into situations ye have NO control over
But maybe ye do, maybe ye can not stop the literal course of action but ye can stop yer REACTION to what's happening...I strive each day to be the best I can be no matter what the day brings me.
there truly comes a time when ye have to just...let go!
Truly LET GO!
it doesn't matter how much ye wanted to make things work, to try to hold on, to think positively that maybe in time it will all get better...
To have control in your life, to live the life you want, you have to realize toxic people can not stay, no matter how much you want to make it all work out for the best...